Angel’s Carcinoma Transformation Testimonial – Feb 2011

Angel’s Pangu Shengong (Pan Gu Mystical Qigong) testimonial discussing nasopharyngeal carcinoma, chemotherapy sickness and spiritual transformation.

My name is Angel. In June of 2008 I was diagnosed with nasopharyngeal carcinoma (NPC). At that time, I was already six months pregnant. The doctor informed me that because the disease was still in its infancy, if I immediately terminated my pregnancy, the NPC disease could be treated and I had a good chance of being cured; otherwise, I would miss out on the opportunity for treatment. If I chose to continue to suffer with the cancer through the pregnancy, the illness would worsen very quickly. In this situation, both my family and the doctors encouraged me to discontinue the pregnancy. While holding the diagnosis in my hands, I sat down silently, I looked at my bulging stomach, and at that moment, my baby’s feet stretched inside my belly suddenly, and my round belly rose up a little. I soothed my baby gently with my hands and said to him with my heart, “Don’t worry my dear baby, your mum is here, I will protect you very well. You haven’t looked at this wonderful world at all, but I have lived 40 years, I don’t mind leaving this world in exchange for you being born safely.”

Thereupon, I went to a different “Women and Child” hospital by myself. I didn’t let my family know about it. At the hospital I asked an obstetrician –gynecologist, “Could people seven months pregnant give birth to healthy babies, and are those types of babies called “Seven Start Babies?” (In Guangzhou, China, people use this term to describe an early delivery baby). The doctor replied, “Yes, but we must take exceptional care of the baby shortly after the baby is born, we even should put the living baby into an incubator case for a few weeks.” After hearing this, I said to the doctor, “Dear doctor, I am already six months pregnant, unfortunately, I have been diagnosed with nasopharyngeal carcinoma. The disease is still in its infancy and will not discourage me from continuing with the pregnancy. If I receive treatment as soon as I give birth to my child, my life will not be damaged at all. Help me please!” The doctor replied, “Really? This is a great risk.” I answered, “The oncologist already told me that, and I do not mind facing such risks.” Hence, the obstetrician–gynecologist agreed with my request.

To ensure that I could give birth to my baby while I was still alive, I asked an senior student of Pangu Shengong (PGSG) if it could really cure cancer. She replied, “Of course, but your heart should not have distracting thoughts and you should have sincere trust when you practice, you must believe that through practicing PGSG you can cure your cancer completely.” I responded, “I surely will make the effort. Could you please tell me where I can find the originator of this Qigong? Is it possible to ask him for advice?” She answered, “He is in America, and he is too busy to talk, but you can start to practice, it is unnecessary to disturb him.” I thought, “There are many kinds of Qigong in China, and all say that Qigong can build up a good physique, however, I suffer from cancer as if sentenced to the death penalty, it is an incurable disease, and furthermore I am pregnant.”

At that time, I hadn’t read Master Ou’s books or listened to his CDs at all, and I barely practiced once a day. Having just learned the moving form of PGSG from that elder student, I still wondered if PGSG really would be able to cure my disease, and what was the most effective way to practice. After I thought about these issues, I went out and bought all of the works and CDs of Master Ou, and practiced 12 to 15 times a day. After a week, I had finished reading the books and listening to the CDs; the successful testimonials and the explanation of PGSG philosophy derived from the books built up my confidence. For the safety of my baby, I decided to make a telephone appointment with Master Ou Wen Wei. I hoped to ask for advice about how to practice PGSG most effectively. After reading the works of Master Ou, I realized that I had fortunately encountered great wisdom from a refined scholar. I was eager to consult Master Ou, and on July 18th of 2008, I got through to him by telephone. Over the telephone Master Ou instructed me kindly, “Yes, I can help you! But the key is how well you understand and accept Pangu Shengong. Your belief must be firm, your will must be strong, the practice needs to be diligent; for the recovery to be complete you should be filled with confidence, and test yourself to see if you can bear the training of suffering from the illness during the curing process; the most important thing is that your own heart prevails. If you can do so, you will fulfill your wish—to give birth to a healthy baby. In addition, I hope that you have one more wish, which is to recover from cancer yourself and be healthy again through doing Pangu Shengong exercises. I can give you long distance energy treatments, but the most important thing is that you must make up your mind to devote yourself to do the 6-practices of Pangu Shengong and keep on elevating your heart and soul.” Master Ou also taught me that communicating often with other senior students would be beneficial. He told me a story which occurred in Zhongshan City of Guangdong, China. In that city, there lived a PGSG student who had suffered from liver cancer, his tumor was 25mm x 27mm. He practiced constantly for 48 days and nights, after which he recovered fully. My heart was inspired very much at that time. I owned my own business, but I decided to reduce my work load at once, trying my best to put into practice the principles of PGSG.

Thus, I read the works of Master Ou repeatedly, and learned to practice PGSG calmly, peacefully, and enthusiastically as I had been instructed by the senior PGSG student. When I practiced I concentrated on rotating the sun and moon and listening to Master Ou’s songs joyfully. After a little while, I learned the non-moving form of PGSG. Sometimes I practiced until midnight, and got up at 5:30 in the morning to practice. My baby received prenatal education and influences from Master Ou’s music, and practiced PGSG together with me diligently every day.

However, my family opposed me for not accepting medication until after I gave birth to my baby. They said that not taking medication was very dangerous and I might even lose my own life. They threw out all of my CDs and books, and told me that if I continued to insist on the PGSG that they would break off the family relationship with me. This created much emotional pressure on me; I could only practice in my bedroom secretly. Later, my husband would leave the house for the entire day, and eventually did not come back anymore. With all this, I knew if I continued to be absorbed in practicing PGSG, I couldn’t handle the running of my company, thus, I would need to close my business, which meant that many years of accomplishment with the business would vanish. It was so difficult to be happy at that time, and frequently my tears flowed all over my face. I called Master Ou again; he consoled me kindly, “Angel, there is no need to cry, from this example you can see and understand the vicious side of human beings. To be stronger, try your best to give birth to your baby joyfully, I will support you. In order to realize your wish, you must conquer your sadness. You should move your focus completely on living for your baby. Let go of all negative emotions and forget about the money issues. Once you go beyond them, you have hope.” After that Master Ou sent healing energy to help me, without any charge, at regular intervals. My son was born on time, in a natural way. Until that point, I had not received any medical treatments at all. Master Ou offered to give my son the name Qingxin Su. (The name means: celebrate the new life.)

When I gave birth, because I had not informed my parents when I delivered my son, and my husband stayed with his girlfriend and did not come and take care of my baby and me, there was only the babysitter beside me. I missed my husband so much, and I felt so sad and lonely while I stayed at the hospital. The night my son was born, my head began to have acute pain and I was diagnosed as having late period nasopharyngeal carcinoma (NPC). The doctor informed me that the most I could hope to live would be only about three months, if I did not accept chemotherapy without delay.

Nevertheless, I came back home by myself four days after my son was born. I did not tell the doctors and nurses that I knew that I must continue listening to Master Ou’s music and start to practice PGSG immediately. The sorry fact was that I couldn’t deal well with the loss of my business and the relationship with my family. The acute pain was unceasing and appeared to me more and more heavy. My eyes, ears, nose, mouth, and head all felt acute pain together; the left eye was not able to tear, my neck couldn’t turn to the left, the left shoulder and arm were very painful and difficult to tolerate, even one of my molars was masticated in half, and I vomited heavily. When the energy healing was intense, my heart jumped a few times and stopped a little while, my mouth couldn’t open to eat. My sleep did not last more than half an hour at a time because I was awoken by acute pain. Because I was so uncomfortable, I turned around in the bed and tumbled over onto the floor unknowingly at the most painful moment; this situation lasted for more than 60 days. I entered an extreme state of feeling so horrible. I was weak at all times, thus, I was taken back into the hospital by my family. At midnight, I escaped from the hospital to return home and practiced PGSG continually. When my family heard about this, they talked to me and said that they would be very sad if I left this world. Again they said that if I still insisted on practicing and rejected returning to the hospital, they would break off their relationship with me. My situation became confused. There was such pain, worry, and disappointment, that even I wanted to end my life. In desperation, I called on Master Ou again. Master Ou spoke to me calmly and peacefully, “Angel, your baby was born, don’t become entangled with unhappy things, adjust to get along well with your family, control yourself better; the next thing you need to do is prolong your life.”

After thinking about that seriously by myself, I decided to accept a preliminary chemotherapy and radiation therapy treatment. At that time, Mandy, Master Ou’s wife, taught me through e-mail. She said that I’d become better if I practiced and listened to Master Ou’s songs as much as possible, and to calm down and be happy, at once.

I reluctantly accepted the chemo treatment, but after about one month my left side shoulder and neck were still in great pain, my left hand could not even move a little. I was not able to wear clothes, and my left clavicle had swollen up like an egg. After the doctor checked it, he informed me that the cancer had transferred into my bone. The chemo treatment would not work anymore because the chemo would make the tumor larger, so the doctor had to stop the chemo treatment and switched to use radiation therapy to help me. I remember that, at that time, every little bit of movement was so painful that I wept.

But I never stopped practicing even while receiving the radiation treatment. I practiced the non-moving form of PGSG and listened to the songs while receiving treatment in the hospital. Although I was extremely horrified by those treatments, when I had to receive them I visualized that I was swimming in the fair lake of kindness and benevolence. I visualized lush green meadows around the lakeside, there were couples of swans and wild ducks swimming on the lake leisurely and happily, and the area was permeated with holy and angelic golden light; Master Ou, Mandy, Olivia and students of PGSG were there. I share this beautiful image with you because this graceful visualization successfully emboldened me to face every hard moment of the hospitalization. It allowed me to quietly be able to communicate with all of the medicines when I felt extremely fearful. I gave thanks to the medicine for healing me; I invited the medicine to reform my evil into good. My heart communicated with the medicines, and I practiced the non-moving form. Doing this, I went through every frightening second of the experience of the preliminary chemo treatment. Because I practiced the moving form 20 times or more a day and practiced the non-moving form during the treatment process while staying in the hospital, and never stopped listening to songs and reading books, the side effects of the treatment were greatly alleviated.

I recovered rapidly, the PGSG program instructed me to calm down from alarm quickly; I just concentrated on practicing. I remember that there were three patients staying with me then, they had accepted chemo treatment six months earlier than me. When I began the treatment, I was pushed into the ward by wheelchair, but I was the first one who did not need to use the wheelchair and I soon could walk upstairs quickly. Due to the PGSG instruction, the negative side effects caused by radiation treatment were light and any severe pain disappeared completely. Since I felt better, and could demonstrate that I felt better, I reached agreement with the doctors and my family to allow me to go home. I stopped all medication prior to leaving and checked out from the hospital quickly and came home happily. It felt as if I had returned back to the world of vitality after having traveled through hell; the place for purifying the soul.

I treasured very much my continuation of life. I thought, “How many days I can live is not the most important thing for me now, but every moment should be the most significant.” After I came back from the hospital I insisted on practicing for four hours calmly, listening to Master Ou’s songs for three hours, reading books for two hours, and continued to keep meeting with other PGSG students to exchange practice experiences. I believe in the music therapy from Master Ou’s songs and actively sent healing energy to save others regularly. I learned to improve my abilities by keeping to longer practice with a calm and peaceful mindset. I also learned to simplify my own business according to the instruction in Master Ou’s books. I faded my desires and insisted on improving my heart and soul. Finally, I discovered that I had too many requests and stressful demands, that this was the source of much resentment and discontentment; this had been my inherent stubborn habit for a long period. I experienced the improvement of my soul consciously and unconsciously. I was able to get along with others in a more friendly and harmonious way, with more smiles and always with fewer grudges and less sadness.

In the later part of 2009, I started to concentrate on the six kinds of practice, the complete PGSG program, and I learned to send healing energy to help some seriously diseased patients. At the beginning, I tried to help a lung cancer patient. During the first day, I experienced fever and vertigo while I sent healing energy to him. As a result, I could not even see. It persisted for about half an hour, at the same time, I listened to Master Ou’s songs calmly and peacefully, after which I practiced PGSG for two hours until I recovered completely. On the second day, after I sent healing energy to him, my teeth felt a burning pain, and my mouth was swollen closed, then after I listened to Master Ou’s songs for three hours, a swollen blister between my teeth broke open and liquid ran out of it. With that, the burning pain in the teeth disappeared. On the third day, there was a round ball shaped swelling growing on the right side of my throat. I could not even swallow water; it was too painful to sleep. I lacked almost all my strength so I could only lie on the bed and focus on listening to Master Ou’s powerful songs. My soul melted away to the vision of Master Ou’s songs, as if I was in a paradise where the sun was shining with a holy light; a calm, peaceful, harmonious, bright and beautiful light. There were no noisy or annoying disputes. For five days I lost my voice completely. During these days, I insisted on reading and practicing as usual, and to be soothed with Master Ou’s music. My heart interchanged and communicated with the messages from the music. Fifteen days passed, after which I was able to sing the song, “Graceful Foggy River.” Due to my previously cancer injured throat, I had been unable to sing for more than a year and a half, but at that time I could once again sing smoothly. When that happened, tears moistened my face joyfully and silently.

The miraculous world is too profound to be understood superficially, but it can be perceived and one might be enlightened by the vision. Following exactly the instruction of Master Ou, “Can we reach the virtuous confines of turning death over to life? It depends on whether we can be tolerant towards everything in the universe with our broad-mind, turn disadvantages into advantages, make gain out of loss, convert enemy into friend, and transform hate into love…”

In September of 2009, I was fortunate to travel with Master Ou to Beijing, I climbed up to the top of the Great Wall steadily, and then when we traveled to Shanghai, I was able to swim at the hotel. I was happily excited at that time and when a group of us had dinner together a PGSG student said that my face was glowing with health.

At the end of 2010, Master Ou allowed me to visit his home in the US. I was taught by his personal example as well as verbal instruction; it allowed me suddenly to wake up from ignorance. That awakening enabled my life to arrive at a fortunate turning point; I witnessed the evil deep in my soul. I realized that my unique path of life should be to deny my selfish desires in order to achieve a higher level of benevolence.

Currently, my son is two years and three months old, and he is healthy and intelligent. He likes listening to Master Ou’s songs. One day I discovered that he tried to practice the moving-form of PGSG according to the book of Pan Gu Mystical Qigong. I give thanks for Qingxin Su, my dear son; he took the risk of losing his life to come into this world. He pushed me to realize the profoundness of Pangu culture, and let me have a chance to repair my broken human body and soul. I obtained my new life at my last gasp. My dear son, mum appreciates you!

I thank the tempering caused by the illness because it guided me to be diligent in practicing PGSG, let me enjoy Master Ou’s music, study his great works intensively, and understand the true meaning of life. Reflecting on my experiences from the past few years, I can see that I was narrow minded and full of sorrow, and I always fell into the mood of sadness and suffered when awake. At night fears would invade me, causing me to curl up, feeling tortured and alone, just like a frightened bird. But now, I have been reborn.

I thank the steadfast instruction of Master Ou, which allows me to understand the profound and lasting meaning of, “Existing while opposing, being tolerant then stable, being harmonious then resonant.” It allows me to live with peace and tolerance, and lets me constantly train on the path of kindness and benevolence.

Deep in my heart, I am so very grateful to you — Master Ou.